to watch one fall from afar, knowing there is nothing you can do an truly be the most painful thing to do. you watch them become so entrawled in what they are doing and see them so happy that you wish that they could stay that way forever, but then you watch them fall. crashing down onto the floor. shattering into a million pieces. their heart left in pieces. watching them cry, watching them die. there is no true way to describe the pain that sears through the loved ones that see you charge down your path of destruction. you try to fix their problems , you try to help them, you want to take them into your arms and cherish there forever. but you cant. all you can do is watch them slowly kill themselves. you can only watch them fall